Tuesday, December 29, 2015

Ecclesiastes Chapter 3 (Portfolio Poem #11)



**inspired by Vivaldi's Four Seasons**



Everything has an appointed season, and there is a time for every matter under the heaven.


Dusk has fallen in my yard

I dangle my legs off the rough, sun warmed iron

listening lazily to the drone of cicadas fill the sultry air.


A time to give birth and a time to die; a time to plant and a time to uproot that which is planted.


The endless summer night an empty piece of paper

waiting for me to aimlessly scrawl a memory.


A time to kill and a time to heal; a time to break and a time to build.


The golden glow of this afternoon is a silky embrace as I walk to class,

Glossy textbooks in my arms.

leaves are fluttering down-- flames crunching underfoot


A time to weep and a time to laugh; a time of wailing and a time of dancing.


The snapping breeze brings the glittering undercurrent of winter

And carries the scent of apples.


A time to cast stones and a time to gather stones; a time to embrace and a time to refrain from 

embracing.


Brisk winter winds immediately introduce themselves

I step outside at dawn. clean, cold air.

energy coursing through my body. 


A time to seek and a time to lose; a time to keep and a time to cast away


Pale light filters slowly through the stark, bare trees

the entire world still snuggled under its downy blanket.


A time to rend and a time to sew; a time to be silent and a time to speak.


Tender shoots poke through my periphery

I shed my cocoon; emerge triumphant

The world emerges from hibernation.


A time to love and a time to hate; a time for war and a time for peace.


Minty rains wash the cold away

And the silvery sun returns again.






































Thoughts at 96th Street Subway Stop (Portfolio Poem #10)

Momentary eye contact
headphones in
stiflingly hot
loud, creaking, clattering
swollen feet.

The aspiring artist sitting
next to the
Teenage father next to
the melancholy, middle-aged, slightly balding
man on his way to work.

The doors open
The doors close
Walking in
Walking out

Hurried
rushing.

How is she wearing a sweater-- it's 
so hot and
What is he laughing at and
Why aren't his laces tied and
he looks like he
just left the gym.

I should work out
and I don't think that person knows 
what headphones are for because
I can still hear
her music.

Friday, December 18, 2015

The One Where I Realized It's Good to Cry (Portfolio Poem #9)

A hazy winter's day when the weakly yellow three P.M. sun
is slowly being shrouded in silver mist.
A frigid gust cleans out my lungs and each flurry falling
contains the crystalline molecules of former acquaintances.

My frozen eyelashes dart toward the hunched figures
stiffly walking past
I am a rock-- an island, though no man is--
And I've built walls. A fortress, deep and mighty
That the silent mounds of snow prove impenetrable.

I've heard the words of love before,
slumbering softly in my memory--
I won't disturb the feelings that have died,
Because-- if I never loved I never would have cried

Crunching underfoot is the snow that was once freshly fallen,
Once pristine. Now sullied and stained.
Me? I have my books and my poetry to protect me
I am shielded in my armor.
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb
I touch no one and no one touches me-- I am a rock
I am an island.

A rock feels no pain
And an island never cries.

But when the moons rise and fall, and the swell of time
Brings back the sun-- those fingertips of gold climbing into my periphery
And the grimy drifts of gray make way for tender green spires
The freedom from pain, the safety of the tomb
The impervious silence and cultivated gloom
Is no longer worthwhile.

No soul should be yearn to be free from pain
'Cause only through hunger we know content.
And only opening up to the bitterness of grief--
of ache, of need, and strife
Will make the moments of joy bring you back to life.


**shout out to my men, Simon and Garfunkel (again) for inspiring me with "I Am A Rock"**

Tuesday, December 15, 2015

Life and Words (Portfolio Poem #8)

Old friends sit on the park bench like bookends
Visages jaded with words—faces crumpled newspapers
Below each stark, shadowy brim.
As I watch them, I think—how strange to be seventy
When time passes, that perpetual pendulum
Nearing closer and closer to sunset.

A leaf flutters, falls—the fiery park ablaze, a forest of sunset
The old men shrouded in overcoats—books to bookends
Words blur and focus between them. I hear the pendulum
Of their conversation as each gesture toward the newspaper
Between them. The sounds of the city, seventy
Horns going off at once, a cacophony filled to the brim

Can you imagine us, years from today—life full, up to the brim
Winter companions huddled together at sunset
I can’t imagine—how terribly strange to be seventy!
Conversation frozen between friends; between bookends
And what will they say in my obituary in the newspaper
When time finally catches up to me and the pendulum

Stops swinging. That perpetual pendulum
Is only perpetual for who? For G-d, I guess. And the brim
Of my hat will shield my face from the inevitable death in the newspaper.
Now, sounds of the city drift through trees, settling like dust at sunset
On the hunched shoulders of the old friends, sitting like bookends
Peacefully. Sharing, quietly—no need to talk. Seventy

Years or more, between them— that's seventy
Times 525,600 minutes. A pendulum
Unceasing, so far. Will words fill the yearning gap between my bookends?
Soft ones—or jabbing ones—harsh ones—uplifting ones—up to the brim
Until no more can be crammed in before sunset?
Life, to me, is a fleeting newspaper

A brief coverage of events, swiftly growing more crumpled. A newspaper
Filled with stories, each unique—but similar. Seventy
Or more stories, tragedies, disasters, but heroes too. And the weather at sunset.
What will it be like when my time comes, and my pendulum
Is no longer perpetual; rather halted at the brim
Of my now-filled, teetering shelf, precarious books held fast by bookends?

“He was a most peculiar man” reports the newspaper, ominously ticking, a pendulum—
“Died at seventy, found dead in his bath, filled up to the brim.”
I suppose sunset is both winsome and wistful—A beginning and an end. Bookends. 


(inspired by and loosely based on a Simon and Garfunkel song)

The Devil's Tour: A Response (Poetry Review for Portfolio)



Meira Nagel


December 10, 2015


Read/Write/Blog Poetry


Professor Miller


                                                            The Devil’s Tour: A Response


After reading Mary Karr’s memoir, I was immediately taken by her style of writing, which led me to her works of poetry. It is clear that both her poetry and prose, while including tragic autobiographical elements, remain beautifully unsentimental and unexaggerated. Mary Karr’s collection of poetry encompassed in The Devil’s Tour consist mainly of traditional subjects and forms of poetry-- most are narrative poems, some are homages to mentors, some love poems and confessions, some elegies for friends, and other more morbid topics. She has a very controlled technique and it is clear that every word written was chosen purposefully; her poems are all succinct but remain powerfully descriptive.


A quality of Karr’s work that I really connected to was her command of pace in her poetry. Her poems generally have clipped stanzas and crisply enjambed lines, adding just the right amount of tension to the flow of her poems. Lines like “Fifteen and drunk/on apple wine, hiding in your Afro’s shadow/ you wore the bruised imprint/of your father’s palm with quiet chivalry” (“Coleman”) speed up and slow down as necessary, making the picture she is painting that much more clear.


As previously stated, one of my favorite aspects of Karr’s poetry is her ability to focus on darker subjects without sliding into a melodramatic or sentimental tone— she sticks with her delicate and meticulous control of detail. Her technique in doing so is twofold: firstly, she avoids abstractions, which helps paint a clearer image of what she is trying to convey. Secondly, a lot of her poems have a strong sense of humor even while addressing tragic events. In both her memoir and her poetry, it is clear the humor works as a coping mechanism for tragedies. In “Her One Bad Eye” Karr describes her mother’s impending blindness by inserting a detail “My toddler son thought it funny/to lead her unexpectedly/off curbs or into low shrubs.” This dichotomy between something this humorous moment and something so sad— “we are dead to each other/that way, though she opened/her body to let me shine/weeping into this world” is another aspect of what makes Karr’s poems so human and so relatable.
Loving attention to seemingly insignificant details is another thing that makes Karr’s poetry great--in “Soft Mask”, Karr is describing seeing her child on the ultrasound, watching the arrow used to measure his heart. The poem is her meditating on this moment, lingering on the details-- but she amazingly does not slip into a sentimental or mushy tone—“That soft mask, not yet hardened in autumn wind/would hold a thumbprint if I touched him. I hesitated/to touch him.” Not only can Karr handle this kind of subject matter without sentimentality, but technically speaking, she is also accomplished at achieving a natural-sounding formal meter: “When he stands to cough the syrup from his lungs/arrive to sponge him cool, and he cries no/ and no and no, the only syllable” (“Croup”).


Her use of metaphor is exquisite in its simple poignancy— lines like “his eyes/are burn holes in his face” (“Etching of the Plague Years”) or “voice raspy as flies' wings" (Don Giovanni’s Confessor”) paint such a vivid image, regardless of their simplicity. More words would just be clutter, and Karr knows it.


While a lot of Karr's poetry is undoubtedly self-involved, it remains unpretentious and raw. These poems are all understandable and relatable right off the bat; they do not require an academic explication in order to be understood. However, while the jacket blurb also claims that Karr writes for “everyday readers,” these are in fact complex, intellectual poems. The seemingly simple poems of life, death, a sick mother, a lunch meeting, an affair—all serve as a reminder that if we wish to deduct meaning out of fairly ordinary happenstances, we can.


These poems all reflect the inner workings of the human experience, and manage to do so in a dazzlingly simple way. The title for this collection of poetry is mentioned in the first line of her poem “All This and More,” a poem which describes her spiral down into addiction and escape. Karr says regarding this book of poetry: “This is a book of poems about standing in the dark, about trying to memorize the bad news. The tour is a tour of the skull. I am thinking of Satan in Paradise Lost: ‘The mind is its own place and it can make a hell of heav’n or a heav’n of hell…I myself am hell.’”[1] What is interesting about the title poem and several others in this collection of poetry is her use of second-person language:


“…So your head became a tv hull,


a gargoyle mirror. Your doppelganger


sloppy at the mouth






and swollen at the joints


enacted your days in sinuous


slow motion, your lines delivered






with a mocking sneer. Sometimes


the frame froze, reversed, began


again: the red eyes of a friend






you cursed, your girl child cowered


behind the drapes, parents alive again


and puzzled by this new form. That’s why





you clawed your way back to this life.”


The use of second-person language both makes it seem like the author is being introspective and confessional, as well as drawing the reader in further and gaining more relatability.


On another technical note, Karr occasionally moves beyond her confessional, in-her-head style and moves to a third-person narrative. In Don Giovanni’s Confessor, one of my favorites in this volume, the ashamed sinner confesses to his priest, who is then thrust into his own appalled recollection. Karr skillfully weaves intricate, multi-layered stories, but keeps it straightforward and understandable.


Overall, I think the things I’ve been trying to hone in my poetry are all things Mary Karr does so extraordinarily well—namely, perfectly chosen words, succinctness, and the ability to discuss emotional moments with a strict avoidance of sentimentality. Reading her book of poetry inspired me immensely and I hope to continue reading her works. Karr states about her work: “My idea of art is, you write something that makes people feel so strongly that they get some conviction about who they want to be or what they want to do. It’s morally useful not in a political way, but it makes your hard bigger; it’s emotionally and spiritually empowering.”[2]



















[1] http://www.marykarr.com/bookinfo_thedevilstour.php


[2] http://www.poetryfoundation.org/bio/mary-karr

Monday, November 30, 2015

T.V. (Portfolio Poem #7)



It is a ubiquitous Creature; one which most people are familiar with. The Creature is typically disguised as a thin, steely box—often in plain sight. It tends to cling to walls and other flat surfaces, surrounded by squashy, cushiony surfaces in order to more effectively lure in its prey. It looks quiet, unable to do much harm—at first—which is part of its cunning capabilities. Once its prey is sitting, unaware, clouded in naivety, the Creature flickers slightly, the glowing of the Creature growing stronger with every second. Bright colors and enticing sounds draw its prey in more. The droning of this pervasive Creature is inescapable—an incessant buzz fills the ears of whomever is around. The droning is hypnotizing, sometimes exquisitely so. Once ensnared, the Creature’s prey is trapped, frozen in time and space. What is outside the Creature’s realm no longer matters; what is outside the Creature’s realm no longer exists. The Creature can only be controlled by a slim wand that is often buried underneath the surrounding cushions. However, even when the Creature's prey manages to still the monster with the wand, the pervasive influence of the Creature lingers, slowly spreading poison through its prey's mind and body. Even while silenced, it has a magnetic pull. It feeds on humans, mostly, of all shapes and sizes—human brains are its fodder of preference.


The Creature only has one enemy; much smaller, but even deadlier, known as the Cellular. The Cellular also feeds on human brains, and once the Cellular ensnares and begins feeding on its prey, the Creature no longer holds the same magnetic pull. The Cellular and the Creature constantly battle over the limited food supply of human brains, each attempting to ensnare the Creature with brighter colors or more enticing noises. The Cellular is even more dangerous than the Creature, as it is a parasite, often found clinging to its prey's hand or hip. It is also far more ubiquitous than the Creature is. It resembles a slim, metallic rectangle with a glowing front screen, and once its screen flickers on, the magnetic pull it emits is nearly impossible for its prey to extricate itself from. The cleverness of the Cellular lies in its ability to have its prey believe it is in control, that it wants the Cellular to be constantly attached, feeding on it. Humans who are ensnared by the Cellular become blank-eyed, helpless, and forget how to speak-- instead, emitting the occasional grunt or absentminded chuckle.




Many scientists have attempted to find a way to prevent the influence of both the Creature and the Cellular, and studies have shown that the only way to stop it is to completely detach from them. Only when humans realize the danger of these two monsters will they be able to remain safe.







Tuesday, November 17, 2015

New Year's Eve Party (Portfolio Poem #6)

Snow covered shoulders 
Impulsive giddy embrace
 liquid gold in glass
                                                           
                                                         Steal a smoky kiss
                                                           luxury; hysteria
Brilliant flash, satin

Mad and whirling lights
Lipstick on his white collar
Maybe a cliche

Dour orchestra plays
dapper men inseminate
brusquely, placid sheep

Night starlit mists roll
beguilingly, quicksands ringing
formlessly, fiercely.